JEALOUSY is all the fun you think they had
-Erica Jong- (an American writer and feminist, 1942)

My sister and El have ±170cm height. I envy their physical body.
My friend named Ad, has a very wonderful black and straight hair. I envy her.
My brother is a lucky boy that he could get everything he wants from my parents EASILY. I envy him.
My ex was a graduate from UCLA. I envy him for he could get the chance...
My best friend's Daddy is a doctor, so she and her sisters could get medical treatment instantly. I envy that family.
There's a girl who is currently dating w/ a guy I used to be with w/o getting any problem from her family. I envy her due to my parents never agreed me to dating him...
....


There was a time when I have to admit that I can easily envy other ppl. Honestly, I hate that feeling. I keep on noticing myself that I supposed to be grateful for everything I have in my life.
Jealousy is a feeling I cannot hide.
It's hard to beat the feeling.
Having that feeling always makes me insecure. It also makes me hard to accept myself just the way I am. I easily lose my self-confident.
Till' I've been awaken by a very special condition: Ppl maybe also envy me for there are many parts of my life are also worth to be envied, like I have a good fam; I am blessed with so many good friends, and etc.
So, why the heck don't I just stop envying other ppl and trying to have more respect myself by keep on being grateful?

I maybe cannot stop envying others.
But, I'll learn how to control my jealousy wisely so I can be a better person. I know... I am too far from good. That's why I need to learn. Again.

(@Ruang Sidang Jurusan, while all crews of IIS had a meeting...)

Pak Nanang :
"Before we do brainstorming, I just want to make sure that everyone in this meeting has brain..."

Mas Hanafi :
"If not, I'll storm you..."


Ppl laughed.
Funny!

I VIEW THE CHANCE...

It's almost 02.00 AM and I still dun go to bed. Today was tiring. I accompanied my sister buying a new notebook, shopping, and watching a muvee.
I am not complaining, now. I just want to write.
Write down the things I've faced. (Overall, I really enjoyed the day especially the moment when My Sister successfully found a pair of shoes she really wants. Yeah, my sister has a difficulty to find shoes since her size is 42. Thank GOD, she got a very lovely shoes.)



Anw, I started this morning by doing an interview. Yes, I applied a job as a hospitality officer at OIA. Dunno exactly will I get the position or not at all. I think I was just not in my best condition. Having a sore throat is kinda irritating.
I applied it not because I will be capable doing this job. It is merely because I need it so badly.
I think I am not that good to speak with other ppl fluently. I instantly become nervous when I have to face ppl and be demanded to speak English directly w/o any preparations. (* Hard to believe, huh?)
*PIYE, Wong nggo boso Indonesia wae isih amburadul. Ki dipaksa ngomong boso Inggris. Yo, angel!*

That's a very main reason why I decided to take it.
Yah, I also care for the fee. =)
But, at this time... it doesn't matter how much money will I get paid. WILL I GET THE CHANCE does matter...
WISH ME LUCK...